I can’t imagine knowing that tomorrow when I wake up, the person I love won’t be here anymore. I can’t imagine making life or death choices for someone I love, and I can’t imagine the amount of pain, and the heartbreak that would never go away. And tonight out there, are those that are contemplating these very things. A family member of mine out there tonight is hurting and she will never be the same. And prayer upon prayer is building on her shoulders and no matter what happens tomorrow, I guess the best any of us can do is to live our best each day and take the next step, whatever it is and say a prayer and hope that it hurts a little bit less every day.
I’m praying for her tonight and for the boy she loves to recover from this. I don’t know how she is mustering the strength to overcome this, I don’t know how life is taken so suddenly and in one instant something we take for granted might be gone forever. I look out here tonight at the city lights, and I think about loss, about moments that are taken from us and in a moment we may never talk to that person we love again, we may never see their face, we may never live those dreams we always thought we would. Life is never easy but something like that, something that causes such extreme loss, such extreme pain, it would change you… it changes the world and it changes each of us.
There’s a quote that says that “life isn’t the amount of breaths we take, but the moments that take our breath away.” But when faced with such instant moments when all could be taken away, every breath would matter and life would be about any breath that survives. There are moments I think that you would never forget, moments that would always make you remember, and really what a life comes down to is moments. And so tonight, in your prayers, say a little something for my cousin and for her peace of mind. Say a little prayer for all those out there tonight grieving or in extreme pain, or those that must make decisions, those that are lost and those that don’t know quite what to do next. I think we must all just give in to faith, pray and pray and when it gets too hard to take, we must just take the next tiny step, and hope that it will get better, have faith that it will.
I don’t have any idea what she’s going through tonight, or what she will go through in the days and weeks to come and whatever decisions are made, I will be praying and I will have faith… and that’s the best any of us can do for anything. We must just have faith and know somewhere in our minds that there is a plan, no matter how hard it may be to see at the moment.