About a month ago, I sat down one evening and wrote something for this post today. I wrote how this year brought emotional challenges for me, about how relationships really changed in my life this year and how half way through the year, I found myself a little lost. And while all of that is honest and all of that is worthy of a post in itself, when I came back to it later, it didn’t seem right. You see, a couple weeks ago a family emergency occurred in my life and what I walked away from it with was a changed perspective on how I look at the world, how I live my life and what my hope for the future will be.
I’m not going to go into details about what happened and the events that led to perhaps the most emotionally heavy 24 hours of my life will remain a private matter, but in short, I walked away from it changed. And as cliche as that sounds, it’s profoundly true.
For anyone that’s experienced a deep emotional pain, when as humans we completely break, when we can only take so much, when we experience loss or heartbreak, you’ll realize that in that breaking, in that sadness, it takes hold deep within you. It grabs hold of every part of you and like an anchor, drags you deeper than can breath, holding you under and leaving you gasping for air. Pain is an emotion that perhaps best represents humanity – we’ve all felt a deep emotional pain in one way or another, we’re united in the realization that seeing someone you love in excruciating pain is one of the very worst things to endure.
But in that pain, in the sorrow and sadness that accompany it, the one thing I have realized this year is that there is no way out of the darkness except to go through it, step by step. I’ve realized the true meaning of forgiveness, of an open and enduring heart, of honesty in the face of complete destruction. I’ve realized that kindness is the cornerstone of humanity and that there is no limit to the agility of the human heart. Pain will try to break us, it will try to destroy the humanity within us, but it is also pain that unites us and makes us stronger.
Life isn’t about what you have in your closet or what car you drive, it’s not about how much money is in your bank account or what your job title is. Life, this precious life we all get to live, is about people. It’s about family. It’s about love. And at the end of the day, even in the pain and sadness around us in what seems like a constant flow of destruction, life is still about hope. Without hope, without faith in a better tomorrow, without a strength to fight through, we have nothing.
So at the end of 2017, I’m ending the year embracing hope. I’m embracing kindness. I’m embracing strength and peace and love. I’m embracing the hope of seeing the sunrise tomorrow and the sunset at the end of the day. I’m embracing the idea that humanity is stronger together, that people are inherently kind and that when faced with the darkest of days, we’re strong enough to make it to see the light on the other side.
Oh sweetie, I’m sorry you had to go through that difficult time; I admire your strength and the fact that you didn’t let the experience
impact you in a negative way. What you wrote is beautiful and your message is already helping others who are experiencing pain; I’m sure every person that reads your post will be touched with LOVE.
Thanks so much Vannesa!
Emily of Em Busy Living says
I’m sorry you’ve faced such difficulties this year. Big virtual hugs for you!
Thank you Emily!!!
Deanna Marie says
Beautifully written. I’m so sorry that you had to deal with so much over this year, but I hope towards the end of it and looking into the new year, that all of your hopes and dreams start to come to fruition.
So well said… here’s to hopes and dreams in 2018!
Diana Maria says
Wow, what a beautifully written and honest post. I’m sorry you have had to go through such difficult times, but you are so right about how we walk away changed, as well as stronger each time. The only way to go through it is to feel it and well, go through it. I wish you all the best, and I hope you have a wonderful New Year xx
Sending light & love your way,
My Lovelier Days
Thank you so much Diana! Happy New year to you as well!
Camila @ AdventitiousViolet says
I’m sorry to hear you went through something so difficult. But this was a beautiful read.
Thank you so much!